Don't Look Here!!!!

Well, just finished work and I'm quite surprised to see so many posts in my tagbox. I used to agree with crap and dirtbag that who needs others but sometimes it just gets so lonely. what's there to feel good about when there is nothing good about yourself. I just say what's on my mind and is that even so wrong? I just don't like to beat around the bush however not everybody likes frankness therefore you can't really please everyone except yourself thus I do the thinks that I like. I'm not judging people, it's just that I'm actually judging myself. I really want to be all by myself but I'm just not strong enough and I'm constantly putting trust in the goodness of human faith. the things that I said are not sadist, I mean what you do to yourself is your own business and it's not called sadist, it's more like self-inflicted. I was like awake for the whole night thus I saw a couple of things that I shouldn't see and since two's a company and three's a crowd, you two just enjoy yourself. Talking about friends, if my friends were like sands in a hour-glass, the duration of my hour-glass would be a fraction of a second. I wonder what would have happened if you didn't read my blog. I really enjoyed our talks even though it meant less sleep for me but now, I really don't know what to do. I really enjoyed the time in between when Adrian when down to fetch Serene and the time your mother entered the room. Life is truly truly short, I learned that when I was still a GNT and thus I just want to do the things that I truly want and not what others want. I'm finishing my Gordon Bleu and it's like I'm just so seasoned that even this won't make me forget all that I've heard, seen and experience yesterday night. I guess I should open another bottle and soon go to sleep, this way, I might feel better. However, I don't regret what I said and I truly stand by the things that I said!

x8vi3r 4:03 am