Don't Look Here!!!!

I'm feeling so emotional right now, the tears are flowing non-stop from my eyes! In the past, no matter how sad I was or whatever, there was always an escape for me, it was the place that I'm working at which is Suntec. It used to be so fun and all and whenever I work, I feel happy and glad if only for a while however, it has all changed now. Many people who I used to be close to are not there anymore and the rest have all changed. Maz whom I used to hang out everyday with is now so arrogant and I don't want to talk to him much if I can avoid him. Natasha who used to be so sweet and nice is not so anymore, we now are just like acquaintance, she's now hanging out with the group of malay girls and I hope that she will not become like them and now, she's ignoring me. In the VIP service, she was the only person that I could talk to and now that she's ignoring me, I've been ever so lonely and I'm beginning to talk myself so often again and others may think I'm mad andryone close to me is like drifting away from me. Everytime I open up to someone, they will most probability leave me so I really do not know why I even bother opening up. I really thought that I will be cheerful this whole month as I'm all but in reality, no one bothers to listen to what I say so It's better if I talk to myself. I feel that eveworking and I will not tend to think of things but now that this has happen, I'm feeling sad and I'm really not ver receptive these few days. At first, I was feeling happy the start of the month as I felt that I could finally celebrate my birthday with people that I'm close to bud now, I feel like I will juz spend it alone again. I'm also growing more and more distant from my family, I don't even remember how my mother looks like anymore. However, I don't care as now, I'm just staying in a house and not a home!

x8vi3r 11:30 pm